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I am so thankful for God. Even when I am a hot-mess, struggling to keep afloat in the world around me, I can always count on God to be there, helping me navigate everything. Even when I fail and when I make mistakes, God is patient with me, He’s merciful to forgive me and He doesn’t give up on me. Instead, he wraps me up in His arms and welcomes me to try again. I don’t ever want to take His mercifulness nor do I ever want to take Him for granted. I want to love God with every fiber of my being and I want Him to bleed through me so much that others can’t help, but inquire more about Him. 

If I accomplish nothing else in this life, I pray that God may be glorified and that people may know Him deeper whether that is through me or that specifically, people see less of me and more of Him. However, sometimes my imperfectness is definitely visible and I can hear my mocking voice (or more so the enemy’s) try to tell me that by making mistakes I am any less Christian. But as I was reflecting one of the verses that tells us who won’t enter in the kingdom of heaven as a way to combat some thoughts that were coming in, I was reminded of how difficult that is and how Christ knows how difficult that is for us. Therefore, THE ONLY way into heaven and the ONLY way we’re able to spend all of eternity with God is through Christ. Jesus says Himself that,“I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.” (John 14:16).

Yes, idolators, fornicators (etc) won’t make it into heaven and many of us would be headed there already because of our pasts. However, it is not by OUR works or our power that we can refrain from doing these actions. It is ONLY because of Jesus that we can and therefore it is ONLY because of Jesus’ actions on the cross and beyond that we can enter in. It is ONLY because of Jesus’ sacrifice and His continued work in us that we will one day be able to stand before God and be with Him.

This applies to me because sometimes I get so caught up in feeling like I need to do this and that. Yes, we should definitely make space for God, but I cannot control God and tell Him what to do or how powerful to make our quiet time. I cannot demand that He do this or that because I am not God! I can only make the space for Him, pray to Him, talk to Him, and ask Him to make those changes through me. That doesn’t mean we should sit idly and that God wants us to sit and do nothing in this process. However, it does mean that I have to be more patient with myself and remember that God will finish the work He’s started. I have to remember that people are saved through Christ alone and my noticeable mistakes, if anything, are just further proof as to why we need to be following Jesus and now Christian speakers or leaders.

No one is perfect except Jesus and thankfully, He doesn’t expect perfection from us. He knew this, so He sent His son, Jesus to do what the law could not do and what we could not do on our own.

He just wants a willing, available heart.

He just wants you.